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Happy Thanksgiving!

I'm so thankful for the wonderful friends I've made over the years, who've been there through my best and worst and made me feel at home. I'm thankful for my parents, and I'm excited to see them for Christmas. I'm grateful I have such an awesome partner and best friend, and so thankful that we're fortunate enough to live together, something a lot of folks aren't able to have.

I'm really grateful to be close to the beach, for the beautiful place we get to live in, and for having a stable job that's been handing me more illustration projects! And I'm excited for where 2016 might take us. :3

To all of those going through hardships, you are in my thoughts and prayers, and I wish that things begin to get better for you all soon. You are awesome, you are tough as nails even if you don't feel like you are, and you're loved.

Love you guys!
With the holidays coming up, and having been pretty sick for a good while, I haven't been able to focus on doing big projects much at all. But once I've caught up more I'll be back on tackling that to-do list soon. I will still try to work in time to work on them when I've recovered from illness a bit more, I don't wanna be infecting all your plush, hahah.

Just so folks are up to date and aware of progress on the remaining rewards plush that weren't refunded due to progress, I wanted to go ahead and post it here. Thank you again so much for having so much patience with me. It means a lot! 


To Do List:

:icontarkeng: Lera Plush
:iconthe-fox-after-dark: Kimba Plush
:iconthe-fox-after-dark: Moomin Plush
:iconzeta-neubourn: Neptune Jr. Plush
If you'd like a holiday card please fill out the form below!…

❄ Please only request one card per household/person.
❄ If you are offended by the phrase "Merry Christmas" please do not ask for a card, it may be Christmas themed!
❄ I can't promise everyone on the list will get one but I will do my very best!
❄ MAKE SURE YOUR ADDRESS AND NAME ARE COMPLETE AND CORRECT in order to be sure the card gets to you! Especially important that those in foreign countries enter their address EXACTLY as it should appear on the envelope and with a real name to ensure it is delivered. :3
❄ Pay it forward to others if you can, in some form - whether it's cards, gifts, or simply acts of kindness :) Bring holiday cheer to as many as you can!

Happy Holidays & Blessings!

Back from New England!

Journal Entry: Wed Sep 30, 2015, 8:57 AM

Hey guys! Zeta-Neubourn and I are back from visiting TwitchyKalgante up north in Massachusetts/New York. It was absolutely beautiful there – the leaves were just changing color and we went out hiking, picnicking, even apple picking, and had a fantastic time. We saw New York City and bought a bunch of stuff and went to the Big E which was awesome and I definitely want to go to a fair again! I love the beach here so much but miss the crisp northern air, rolling hills, and changing seasons. Not so sure which climate would best suit us…we could get a much larger home for much less here, but we could live in a more progressive place with more variety up there. I like both so much! Either way, would be able to visit one and live at the other. 

I can never fight that wanderlust, travel is something I love so much, the change of scenery was exactly what I needed. It was great meeting Kal’s family and being up there with them, and great to see him again and see his home for the first time. They were a very fun bunch and I’m grateful we were so welcome there.


I am slowing down and enjoying life much more because of it, and I feel way less stressed and refreshed from it. This trip solidified things more than ever. Expect more personal art when I do post from time to time, and a pretty quiet shark overall - will be out playing often. C: But I will drop in when I can to say hi, and I hope you are well!


Thanks for all you do!

Game Art and Animation!

Journal Entry: Wed Sep 16, 2015, 10:17 AM

Hey guys!

I'm no longer actively checking messages on this site, but I did want to give an update - I am still working on artwork, despite losing my ability to focus on it and starting to feel less and less attached to it. My job has made it really difficult to see the passion I used to have in this field. As a result, I've been pulling back on "art as work" and trying to go back to "art as passion" - which leads me to the projects coming up.

Zeta-Neubourn is working on creating some really fun games, and the first he's been working on, Full Metal Rabbit, is going to be heavily 2D animated in a fun old-school hand-drawn toon approach! I'll be going back to my roots in animation, maybe even working pencil-to-paper for this project. I want to give it my very best, make it as polished and awesome as it can be, and I'm excited to possibly even get to work with some of the character designs as well. In relation to that, I want to animate just for the fun of it again. I'm nervous to push myself back into this area as it's something I have strayed from for so long, and because I'm so buried in a negative atmosphere with my job that I fear every mistake involved with learning. But I need to conquer that if I'm ever going to get back to what I set out to do with my life in the first place. Comics, animation, and game dev are on the horizon, and I'm not sure how much of it I'll be sharing with you, but I will be diving into it soon!

I'll also be working away at plush - I'm finishing up one of the reward plush, and have 5 more to go. I also have more projects in between for practice and other ideas. It's tough finding the time for everything, especially when I work late a lot and end up in a foggy daze a lot of the time. But I'm looking forward to having that work behind me, and I hope someday I actually can afford the surgery the funds for those plush are intended to contribute to!

Thanks again to all those who are still watching, I hope you're doing well!

Life. It's a thing.

Journal Entry: Thu Aug 20, 2015, 9:37 AM

Just wanted to reach out and say thanks for everybody for all you guys do, I appreciate the kind words on my work, the encouragement, and your support in so many ways.

I've been struggling a lot (for years honestly but I tend to keep quiet and do my best to plow through) and I am branching out to trying to apply to another wave of jobs. For now I'm trying to stay relatively local so we don't have to move anywhere in the next year, unless Emory gets a job elsewhere, which is totally cool. I am having to redesign my portfolio to an extent and shift focus from my artwork to production/design stuff (not my forte but the only thing I can get a job in).

I'm still working on reward plush from 2 years ago when I started up a GoFundMe, each plush is very large and detailed so it is taking a long time to complete them, but I'm keeping the work on them as steady as I can. I'm also trying to clean out the apartment a bit to make things lighter and give us more room, less clutter. I appreciate your patience a lot as I work around the clock and taking breaks is so essential for my health right now.

I've been emotionally drained and in a lot of pain this week. Emotions are NOT something that I like to express or deal with, I'm the type to view everything rationally and tackle problems with logic and progression - more of a "what do I do to change this" approach than a "this hurts and I need to let it out" kind of way, I hate the latter and I hate burdening anyone with it. |D So, change is on my mind. A lot, hahah.

Been looking at home ownership as I mentioned before, but I'm so divided on whether or not we want to stay here in this area, or if we will want to end up somewhere further north, or in between. The ocean is a near-must for me, being far from it would be hard on me, but if we were in an area with other large bodies of water and lots of greenery and rainfall, I think I could cope. I'd hate to give it up unless I absolutely had to though. But cooler weather is totally fine, maybe even appreciated. Been thinking about Connecticut in particular. Not so sure on jobs though.

Ideally, one day we'd be living off our passions. Logically, we need full time jobs. And travel is a big passion of mine, so if I ever want to make that a reality, I need to do more than simply make ends meet. Stability is a must. >_>

But yeah. All my ramblings aside, I'm working my way through things slowly, with a lot of help from Emory who's always there to give me advice and comfort. It's a struggle, I'm not feeling well a good majority of the time the past two years. But I am doing my best and trying to force myself to work just a bit harder to get through this so one day maybe I can recover.

Thank you to the friends who've been there for me. I know I'm never on Skype and I am often quiet online in general. It's not that I don't appreciate everyone, just that I'm very introverted and I tend to handle my emotions by myself (or privately with Emory), and more or less seek advice for solving the problem rather than for comfort - but I'm still grateful for those who've reached out even if I am horrible at knowing how to respond. Thank you. <3


Deviant Artist Questionnaire

Journal Entry: Mon Aug 10, 2015, 2:27 PM

Holy cow guys thank you so much to the like 20-some people who've tagged me recently, I'm so honored to those who've said they wanna meet me, listed me as a favorite artist, etc - I am gonna go through and reply to every single one of them! I guess I better do this too ;_; Thank you!


1. How long have you been on DeviantArt?

Almost 13 years now, though I'm not nearly as active nowdays!

2. What does your username mean?

I think it's pretty straightforward :9

3 .Describe yourself in three words.

A big butt

4. Are you left or right handed?

Wrong-handed :V

5. What was your first deviation?

2D from Gorillaz by Robo-Shark

6. What is your favourite type of art to create?

Character art, for sure. I like drawing for the furry community currently.

7. If you could instantly master a different art style, what would it be?

I don't know about styles but I'd love to master other mediums, especially 3D modeling, watercolor, and animation, as well as making better backgrounds and props.

8. What was your first favourite?

alphapilot by alphaleo14

9. What type of art do you tend to favourite the most?

Cute stuff, plushies, things I wanna use for my wallpaper :9

10. Who is your all-time favourite deviant artist?

I can't possibly pick one, I love so many artists *_*
to name a few!

11. If you could meet anyone on DeviantArt in person, who would it be?

and many more, PLUS all of my IRL friends who I already get to see often! (In fact I've been lucky enough to meet a few of those listed here in person but only once or twice ;_; )

12. How has a fellow deviant impacted your life?

A lot of you have really been there for me when I needed it, and the long notes from :iconfyuvix:, :iconstellasstar: and :iconsaetje: really helped me through some tough times with great advice, among many others. Then there's :iconzeta-neubourn: who I don't know how I'd live without, and :icontwitchykalgante: who's there with us via voice almost every day, just to mention a small few!

13. What are your preferred tools to create art?

Digital mostly, as it's cleaner and faster for me!

14. What is the most inspirational place for you to create art?

At SCAD, for sure. Surrounded by other artists while eating sushi and watching Adult Swim always did it for me. I miss those days.

15. What is your favourite DeviantArt memory?

I can't really say I know for sure, probably getting featured in Daily Deviations and the times when my work got enough favs that it reached the Most Popular on the front page, it was exciting to see although it feels so long ago now, lol! It's also been fun doing trades and commissions for people over the years, and I have fond memories of those I met through fandoms of the past, many of whom have faded away but I have not forgotten you. <3


And a quick very belated tag from DarkGraySkies045 !

1. What is your favorite movie?

Tekkon Kinkreet!
2. Cake or Pie (or both)?
BOTH! :9
3. Favorite Actor (And if you don't have one, favorite singer)?
Ummmm I love a lot of voice actors!
4. favorite animal?
5. Favorite piece of furniture?
Bunk beds!
6. Describe what is perfect weather to you?
Stormy afternoons/nights or snowy ones near Christmas, in a house with a fireplace <3
7. apple juice or orange juice (If neither then,favorite juice)?
Both! But probably apple cider is my favorite!
8. watercolor or acrylic paint?
Watercolors are one of my favorite mediums to look at but one I'm sure I'm not good at!
9. Any of my characters you favor the most? (Sorry idk)
Silvia <3 She's an adorable shy shark!
10. do you like anything about my style?
I love the cuteness to it, and the softness to your characters!
11. if you like aircraft name a few of your favorite?
F-14 Tomcat, F-15 Raptor, Switchblade
12. favorite childhood cartoon?
Pokemon, Mighty Max, Ninja Turtles, and tons more!
13. you favorite OTP? (and for those who don't know what OTP stands for [One True Pair])
Me + sushi :V


Journal Entry: Wed Aug 5, 2015, 8:12 PM

Thanks so much for the input from everyone on my last journal. I know I've been the worst at actually checking up on things here, but I took everyone's words to heart and I will be replying to as many of you as I can!

I'll continue cross-posting my artwork on DA, although with slight watermarks in the future. I will also be easier to reach on other sites! I'm working on compiling which sites I'm going to be active on for now, and I am trying to get an Instagram going so I can start promoting my work there as well.

I really hope I can find most of you all on other sites, but I will keep checking here when I can! If I end up adding you on Fur Affinity, Tumblr, or elsewhere, and then remove you from my watch here, please know it's because I'm watching you on another site where I'm more active so that when I come back to DA, I can sort through a less crowded inbox without crossposted art as often! Thanks |D



Journal Entry: Thu Jul 23, 2015, 7:22 PM

Upload art to Fur Affinity --> instantly get 20 favs and new watchers.

Upload art to DeviantART --> 1 fav, less than 10 views, and a request to add my art to a "Your art is trash" group.

I'm not complaining about popularity or anything like that, just...nobody's ever around here anymore, myself included - the trolls are more active than the artists.

I get my work stolen here and when I report it, nothing happens. For years. The same happens to friends of mine who've reported the same. Then DA defends those who plagiarize, reupload, and otherwise use art that does not belong to them, and permits people to post content that breaks their TOS repeatedly, sometimes this content is even praised by the mods/admins. The site is overrun with memes and screencaps. It barely feels like an art site anymore.

I don't know that I'll continue to upload my art here in the future. I've already taken down my plush account on here due to theft and how rude and inconsiderate people have been (I have several other plush making friends who have done the same, for the same reasons - they stick to Facebook, Tumblr, and FA now). I have not had these same issues nearly as often elsewhere. DA wasn't like this a few years ago but I really don't see things improving much in the future.

I know I'm backlogged on responding to comments and uploads, and for that I apologize - those of you who are still here and still share your work and talk with me are really cool peeps, and I don't wanna miss out on your art! But only a handful of friends even still upload their art here, and most are only crossposting to DA at this point.

You guys all have art accounts elsewhere right? What sites have you moved to (if I haven't already connected with you on FA or Tumblr)? While I've stubbornly stood by this site for over a decade, I just don't see much reason to anymore. DA helped me to build some of my first friendships with fellow online artists, and it helped me to grow so much over the years. But I'm beginning to face the reality that it's just not going to be my home base like it once was.

*beats head on wall*

Journal Entry: Fri Jun 19, 2015, 2:31 PM

I can be such an idiot when it comes to forcing myself to stop my bad habits.

I convince myself I’ll never take on that much work again. Then I beat myself up for making that decision and feel pressured to get back to churning out what people want and being stressed for taking time for anything else.

And then I’m stressed for NOT taking time away and watching life hurtle past me at a rate I can’t grasp.

I’m just really done with it and I know my partner and friends will help me to stop this addiction and cycle of convincing myself I have no self-worth without my constant work. I have trouble convincing myself that people will want to see my personal work again too. That’s my fault for delving so deep in pandering to niche audiences. It worked, hell it worked really, really well. Way better than planned. But I know the friends I have made will be supportive, even if those who are there only for the niche content may fade away in the absence of it.

And I'm sorry that I let the better commission market at Fur Affinity take me away from the people I've known for years here. I have friends and support in both places. I don't feel people here really want to see the work I'm producing over there. I don't know. I feel disconnected from a lot of my work lately. But I know I can pick myself up again.

Honestly I am terrified to NOT be busy. I don’t know why. I guess an alcoholic doesn’t always know why being sober is so terrifying either. But I’m done with regressing again and again.

Not sure what's in store just yet. But what happens will happen when my mind is ready for it and I have confidence that it'll be solid.

Thank you!

Journal Entry: Tue Jun 2, 2015, 8:20 AM

Thanks for such a quick turnout on commissions! I'm sorry not everyone who wanted a slot could get one, I hope I can get more slots open after this round to keep folks satisfied!

To those who really don't want to use the form and insist on using notes, I'm sorry at I can't attend to them - the form is a necessity for me right now and I just don't have an efficient way to answer notes and comments in the order I've received them on 5+ accounts and keep track of everything. I want to ensure all the info is organized and in one place so I don't somehow miss a person's commission. I also can't guarantee slots for people if they don't submit the form. I want to be as fair as possible but it's tough now with folks being on so many different sites!

And thank you for the responses on Patreon, it helped a lot to see exactly what projects people are most likely to fund and by how much, and what sort of things you want to see. Some of the advice people gave was really solid and it gave me more things to think about. I won't be asking about it again until I'm ready to launch one, so I'm sorry to those who don't like it or are annoyed by my prying for more answers. It's just that my art content has shifted since I last inquired for ideas and I am seeing so many Patreon accounts now that I am not sure what direction to go. The answers helped me to solidify things more.

 For the few who left very negative responses - I understand some people's distaste with Patreon. If I do one, I won't be constantly posting journals to advertise it. I just have a dream project I would love to share someday, and those who truly want to be a part of it are appreciated!



Journal Entry: Mon Jun 1, 2015, 1:04 PM

All slots are taken! Thanks guys! :D

Progress can be tracked here. Those who made it to the slots will receive an invoice from me shortly!


So the whole Patreon thing...

Journal Entry: Fri May 29, 2015, 11:21 AM

I'm not saying I'm gonna do one but I am curious if you guys would be so kind as to take this poll on it for me if you can spare the time? All questions are optional so feel free to skip some if desired!…

Just feeling around on it first, not looking to make any moves yet. My work load is way too large for me to commit to much art at this point and I may have to do a lot less in the future though. Patreon might give me the opportunity to actually keep making art, especially for projects like my comic stories. I know everyone is making these and I'm not really behind the idea when they have no focus other than "give me money so I don't have to get a job" kind of attitude. This would be focused and dedicated work, if that's what people would be interested in backing.

As a note, my main art will still be available (no pay walls), I'm not planning to stop doing commissions, and I'm not planning to quit my full time career for it. It's just that I hope I can pull back on the freelance jobs on the side and actually somehow dedicate to my life dream at least a tiny bit? I gave up my most passionate project that I worked on for over 15 years about a a year or so ago but maybe somehow I can revisit it someday. I don't know, may be overly wishful thinking.

(And yes, if the Mechanima route is taken one day, I will have solid writing and some pages done ahead of time.)

But thanks for taking the time to check out the poll!

Commissions Returning June 1st

Journal Entry: Thu May 28, 2015, 9:32 AM

Limited slots will be returning on June 1st, including a Summer Special.

Stay tuned for more info! :D



Journal Entry: Thu May 14, 2015, 7:42 AM


I know I am way, way behind on replying to things, and I am sorry I have responded to so few posts both art-wise and journals/comments/etc-wise too. I've been producing lots of art, just on different sites, mostly. But I am going to get some things going here again soon.

Most likely I'll remain swamped until about August. But after that, I will be doing my darndest to get some more activity going on this account too. Thanks so much for those who've stuck by even though I haven't been the most talkative friend as of late. I still love ya and your work too. 



Journal Entry: Thu Mar 19, 2015, 8:27 AM

I'm sorry guys. The stress of my job on top of freelance and commissions has just really taken its toll and after fighting for a long time to try to make it as an artist I'm tired and I just want to come home at night and take care of myself and spend time with people I love. I need exercise and to eat right and to sleep well. I'm tired of getting sick and being in pain because I don't take care of myself properly. I've been fighting back and forth on this for so long and I just have to stop and accept that I need to prioritize rest over constantly working myself to death, and the best way to do it is to stop adding more to my constantly growing to-do list.

I have a few commissions left and a few trades. Then it will be mostly plush from there on out as I need to fulfill rewards and finish some work for direct sales, which you can find on my plush account Patchwork-Shark. I don't know how much I will be posting here.

I don't intend to fully leave art behind! But things will be a lot more quiet. I know I haven't responded to a lot of messages and I barely comment on anyone's art anymore. I just lack the energy to keep up. Please don't take it too personally if you don't hear from me very often, and I apologize if I no longer post here over time. I loved sharing my work with you all and seeing your work too, and it has been an amazing decade of awesome times with you guys. I hope to still keep in touch when I'm able!


Contest, Life Updates and Stuff!

Journal Entry: Mon Mar 9, 2015, 9:19 AM

Life hasn't really slowed down but it has been more fun since I've been spending more time away from work and going to the beach, playing games, and otherwise relaxing :) This weekend was awesome, with good times at the aquarium where we got to pet sharks, sting rays, and other animals, and at the beach where we saw a wild dolphin, lots of crabs and other little critters, and I even managed to get in the freezing cold water thanks to Kal. We played some old school games on the N64 too.

The more I spend time away from working, the more I realize that there's more important things in life. This article and others like it really speak to me - the older I get, the more I want to spend my time experiencing life - seeing the world, spending time with people and with nature, taking care of myself and just being happy. Drawing does make me happy, but it's become so synonymous with work now that I am having to try to separate it from a constant revolving work schedule and remember that the reason I ever started drawing in the first place was for the enjoyment of it. I didn't use it for praise, money, or anything but fun.

I'm starting to shift my focus from trying to have my dream job to just having a job that pays the bills and isn't too taxing on my time and health so that I can enjoy the time I do have where I'm not working. I don't think I'll be able to get to a  point where my commissions pay enough for me to work full time as a commission artist, and that's okay, maybe it's better that art becomes a hobby for me rather than a constant weight on my shoulders. I'm still going to keep taking them for now but in smaller increments, like I have this month. I'll be less and less active online over time I think though, I want to spend more time with people in person than on the web. I apologize that I'll be less likely to comment and talk with people as much now but I'll be around when I can!

I do want to work towards affording a PC tower in the future and updating my monitor and possibly my tablet someday - I'm using 7-8 year old equipment and a laptop, which just isn't enough to comfortably handle the art software (and maybe games!) I want to be able to run. I'd like to raise some for a nice high grade camera too, for higher quality and rapid-fire photos. I also very much would like to save up for a collapsible kayak so I can get closer to the wildlife at the beach like the kayakers we saw this weekend did with a dolphin. :D All goals I'm going to try to aim for over time.

Expect more plush on Patchwork-Shark soon, most of my art has been on Fur Affinity as of late so feel free to follow me under the name Poofy-Shark if you're interested (it's mostly babyfur oriented, in the perfectly clean, cute, nostalgic sense of it; I enjoy happy playful simple art a lot lately hahah).

Also go check out TwitchyKalgante 's Design a Dream Doll Contest! 3600 points in prizes! I'm gonna be entering later on when I have the chance!


March Commission Slots Closed

Journal Entry: Thu Feb 26, 2015, 7:08 AM

Opening a few days early as TwitchyKalgante will be here soon and I wanna get at least a few commissions done before he is here, since I'll be spending weekends doin' stuff :B

Pricing and Info Here!

Please send references and what kind of commission you are looking for to to claim a spot! PLEASE email me as it makes things much easier for me when I'm crossposting commissions to several accounts and sites, thank you so much!


Other Places to Find Me

Journal Entry: Tue Feb 24, 2015, 8:13 AM

I know DA is getting more and more quiet, so I might as well put it out there that I can keep in touch with folks other places too:

Fur Affinity
Facebook (just starting up the page, gonna upload soon!)
Tumblr (art and reblogs)

I'll try to keep these places updated frequently so feel free to keep in touch there! If you're looking for my "poofy" and plush accounts, those can also be found on FA and Tumblr under the same names.


Feeling better!

Journal Entry: Tue Feb 17, 2015, 10:03 AM

Last weekend I just drew art for the fun of it, finished some plushies for the con, and spent time coloring, watching stuff, going for walks, and playing games with friends, and I really do feel a lot better! I played Minecraft for the first time with Zeta-Neubourn who's teaching me the ins and outs so I can get a feel for basic gameplay and TwitchyKalgante who kept stealing my bed :I It'll take me a while to get the hang of it I'm sure, but I'm really liking it. I wanna skin my character next :B

I'm changing things up commissions-wise, with taking new slots on the 1st of each month. This should prevent me from having too heavy a workload, while also giving me a nice regular schedule. I'm going to start working on plush rewards once I am at a good place on stock for the next convention. I'm sure they will take some time to complete, with most of them being very large and complex, but I am confident they will turn out awesome.

Things are slowing down, and while it still makes me a bit anxious taking time for myself instead of working around the clock, I'm feeling more refreshed and definitely happier. I want to tackle some personal projects I've had interest in doing for the past few years that I haven't touched simply because I'm always working on art and projects for other people. They're mostly fanart and just-for-fun things, nothing serious or anything, but I want to craft and draw just for the sake of doing it. To really love it again (not that I have ever truly stopped loving art, just that the no-pressure, make-what-you-feel-like feeling has been absent for so long).

I'm excited as hell about some of the projects I'm going to tackle now! And it feels great to have that feeling again :V