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Robo-Shark |  Patchwork-Shark (plush) | Naughty-Shark (nsfw)

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Robo-SharkPatchwork-Shark (plush) | Naughty-Shark (nsfw)

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Robo-SharkPatchwork-Shark (plush) | Naughty-Shark (nsfw)

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Contact
Commission inquiries can be sent directly to sharkcommissions@gmail.com. Information and status is here. Thanks!


CLOSED

Journal Entry: Fri Sep 19, 2014, 7:43 AM



Just a few before moving that I'm going to be doing throughout next week! I'll be streaming in the evenings that I can too, so come by and watch if you want!

Please send an email with a ref of your character and which option you'd like to sharkcommissions@gmail.com to claim a slot. Paypal only, thanks!

Fluffbat by Robo-Shark
Chibi Soft Shade - $10 each (complex characters will be simplified)

We're Doomed by Robo-Shark
Bust Shot - $5 Flat / $8 Cel Shaded

FNAF Plushie Concepts by Robo-Shark
Color Digital Sketch - $8 each (complex characters will be simplified)

NSFW is OK! Please ask about particulars and I'll let you know if I can do it.

-Jay


$5 Emote-Icons!

Journal Entry: Sun Sep 14, 2014, 3:32 PM



Emote-Icons by Robo-Shark

Please send a ref and what emoticon symbol you want to sharkcommissions@gmail.com! 10 slots open, very quick turnaround, I will be doing these while packing for moving!

Will stream while drawing if possible!

Thanks!
-Jay


Bit o' Disney Magic!

Journal Entry: Fri Sep 12, 2014, 12:13 PM



When working I sometimes put on some unusual music choices to keep spirits up, and just figured I'd share some fun links for Disney fans.

Love Disney World and wishing you were there? There's a whole collection of park music loops that can transport you to old memories (or just to listen to if you're a Disney fan who hasn't visited the parks). Here's a few:

Magic Kingdom Entrance

Main Street USA

Epcot Entrance

Tomorrowland

Animal Kingdom Lodge

Wishes!

                   

Enjoy!

Jay




Emergency Commissions: Friend Needs Help

Journal Entry: Sat Sep 6, 2014, 1:36 PM



Hey guys!

I know money's tight for a lot of us but my bro Nekokitsune is in need of help for rent money. She's gotta make some funds fast and her commissions are SUPER cheap! You can get cute icons like these for just $5 each:



LOOK HOW CUTE WE ARE >:U

Please see her commish infos if you are interested!

Commission Chart[OPEN] by Nekokitsune

Azuremon is also taking commissions for his surgery fund! Check his site out here: commissionlee.weebly.com/price…

Thanks!

-Jay


Fall Commish Thiiings!

Journal Entry: Fri Aug 29, 2014, 6:44 PM



Fall Badge Commission [Robo-Shark] by Corrupted-Organs

Lookit this awesome Jay badge Corrupted-Organs drew for meeee

Go commish one go go go she's only asking $5 / 500 points for badges. She's been struggling for months to get more than a small handful of commissions. And give her extra if you can spare because her art is worth it.

Do eeeeet.

-Jay


Schedule and Moving

Journal Entry: Wed Aug 27, 2014, 10:23 AM



Update on my current schedule and moving! These plans are subject to change but it's what I'm currently aiming for as long as nothing else comes up:

This Week:
Trade for Angry-Moth-Noises
Commission for Splatologist
Upload plush sketches for FNaF
Fat bunny request for Fat Bunny Week on FA

Week of Sept 1-6:
Commission for jrlallo
Commission for Digimitsu
Gift for Kal
Foxy plush

Week of Sept 7-13:
Commission for Bringbackthedead
Commission for the-fox-after-dark
Commission for Deuvir
Commission for K--O 
Commission for meowsmixify


Week of Sept 14 onward:
Gift for my bud
Mostly packing and moving stuff through to mid October, probably can't work on plush during this time.

Thanks!
-Jay


My DeviantART Story

Journal Entry: Thu Aug 7, 2014, 7:43 AM



I joined deviantART over 10 years ago, back when I was just a kid in high school - I had been a member of Side7 for some time, and I stumbled on DA while looking for other sites to host artwork and meet other artists.

I MUST CAPTURE THE AVATAR by Robo-Shark



Some of my earliest online friends were met through the fandoms here on deviantART. I went through lots of them - Invader Zim, Sonic the Hedgehog, Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends, Avatar, Psychonauts,  Paranoia Agent, and over time, I began to delve more often into my own original works.

Furvolution by Robo-Shark
I had a fursona character, and as I evolved over time, that changed too! Some of my earliest friends, like Myrcury-Art (who I now get to hang out with in person!), remember CJ from when I first started drawing her in 9th grade. I met a lot of fun people through the furrier side of DA, some have come and gone over the years, but I remember many of them well!

Mechanima: Snowfall by Robo-Shark

A few years ago, after graduating community college and working at a souvenir design studio for a few years, I decided I wanted to go to school for my Bachelor's. A few of my awesome online friends wolvenillusion and fowlboss encouraged me to go to SCAD, and I moved in with them and Shortcake-Middy ! SCAD was one of the most amazing experiences in my life so far, meeting and living with artists from around the world and studying my deepest passion in animation. I found people who actually appreciated my original characters, and after years of not giving them much attention, the cast of Mechanima began to take center stage!

You Make Me Feel So Young by Robo-Shark

I discovered so much at SCAD. I got to live with some of my favorite Deviant-Artists, surrounded by passionate hard-working people who lived for their art, and most importantly, amongst learning and evolving as an artist, I discovered myself. I took my first steps towards my career and towards my transition, finding my new name and working towards a new life.

Fast forward to last year: SCAD was over, and I was intent on making the leap into the art world. There was nothing for me back home in Arizona, and I knew I had to move in order to find success. I posted to deviantART announcing that whether I had a job or a place to live or not, I would be leaving home in July. I was set on Florida or California, but I had nowhere to go, and I would have opted to live out of my car until I could find a job if I had to.

A lot of kind friends reached out to me. Zeta-Neubourn and I had watched each other for some time, and while we didn't know one another very well, he sent me a note telling me that while he didn't have a lot of space, I was free to stay at his apartment while I looked for work. Albeit very nervous about moving in with someone I'd never even met before, I was really grateful he gave me a place to stay so I didn't have to live out of my car on the street while I looked for a job. I crashed like a homeless bum on his couch for what seemed like forever, living out of garbage bags that held my clothes and belongings. Finally I landed a job, working on Disney and Marvel properties in the Tampa area. It was near the beach, which was an absolute dream of mine. SubstantiallyUseless , another SCAD artist and friend, helped me to get started in the new area, and now we live within minutes of each other!

Morning Fluffs by Robo-Shark

When it came time to move, Zeta generously opted to move with me. Over time we slowly grew closer. I'm so fortunate and proud to call him my partner now.

So, in short, deviantART and the contacts I met through it made me who I am today. I met some of my best friends, who I also eventually met in person, some of whom I lived with, and one I hope to spend the rest of my life with (or a good bit of it at the very least!). They helped me to grow as an artist but more importantly, they helped me to grow into the man I am today, and gave me all the support I could have ever asked for to get there. They've commissioned my work, featured me in their journals, drawn me amazing gifts, trades, and commissions, and helped fund my future surgery.

For all of that, I'm happy to call DA my online home. Thank you all for all you do!

-Robo-Shark


Sharky Crossover Contest! ENDING SOON

Journal Entry: Fri Jul 25, 2014, 1:27 PM



Contest ends in 4 days! Voting will be for 1 week afterwards! I'll announce more details on October 1st! :w00t: All the current entries are on my profile if you would like to check them out, thank you so much to all who've entered!

As a note, we will be moving shortly after the end of the contest, so prizes may take a bit of time to complete. Thanks for your patience! :D

Robo-Shark Menu Sprite by TyphloserSharky Crossover Contest!Robo-Shark Menu Sprite by Typhloser
Throw Jay into an alternate universe! It can be a video game, movie, tv series, time period, etc (maybe your own universe with your character[s])! The theme is open to your interpretation, take it however you'd like and have fun!

EDIT: Since a couple people have asked, yes, you can draw Jay as a human if you want to! I've added a ref of myself (lol) below and as it states in the rules, you can change him to fit your theme if you like - this includes different forms, species, clothing, etc. Creativity is totally cool!

EDIT: There are currently 15 entries, halfway to unlocking the grand prize! :D Thanks guys!

Reference
Jay Reference v3 by Robo-Shark
Jay and Jay by Robo-Shark

Rules
+The image must contain Jay. You may add any other characters if you'd like to!
+You can change him to fit your theme - different species, different attire, etc!
+The entry must be visual - illustrations, crafts, etc are welcome!
+No bases, templates, or other content which you have not created.
+Mature content is OK! But no sexual situations between Jay and another character, thanks!
+Submit entries by tagging Robo-Shark in the description (with an @ robo-shark, remove the space) or via note.
+Up to 3 different entries may be submitted!
+Deadline to enter is Sept. 30th, 2014 @ Midnight EST.
+Voting will be conducted for a week after the contest ends.
+Have fun with it!


Prizes
:star:Grand Prize (Unlocked at 30 entries):star:
+8" Custom Floppy Plush
Patchwork Pokemon by Patchwork-Shark
+More Points to be Added to All Prizes!

:bulletblue:1st Prize:bulletblue:
+1000 :points:
+Full Color Shaded Illustration
Boardwalk by Robo-Shark
+Pool Toy Illustration
Inflatable Emory by Robo-Shark
:bulletgreen:2nd Prize:bulletgreen:
+500 :points:
+Rough Cel Illustration
Mechanical Comrades by Robo-Shark

:bulletyellow:3rd Prize:bulletyellow: - 2 winners!
+250 :points:
+Chibi Illustration
Chibi Ray by Robo-Shark



All entries will be featured on my page during the run of the contest!

Thanks for reading!
-Robo-Shark


So uh.

Journal Entry: Wed Jul 9, 2014, 4:45 PM



Ever have a character you've repressed for too long and you just can't hold him inside anymore to the point that it feels like he's going to rip his way right out of you?

Guess there will be some Mechanima art again soon because I feel this burn rising in me and I can't hold it back anymore.


Commissions Complete and Thanks!

Journal Entry: Wed Jul 2, 2014, 7:57 AM



Thanks for all the well wishes for my bro! He's really appreciated the art and the watches too. :) In addition I've finally finished the art commissions I've owed, they'll remain closed for a while since I need to get to work on more things for Tampa Bay Comic Con! Expect some goofy fanart of sorts soon, and some gifts as well when I'm able to sneak them in. I'll be shifting some focus to adult art for the furry community too. I've already started some and plan to continue that road when I can to raise more funds.

Mechanima is still on hiatus until further notice but the gift art I've received from you guys has really meant so much to me. Thanks a ton for keeping it alive even when I can't spare the time to draw or write about it, I want so much to be able to do so someday in the future. And thank you so much for sticking with me while I haven't been working on it, it is still my dream project and I have not permanently given up on it yet!

In the meantime, I have plush commissions to finish as well, so those are next on the list along with the convention materials. And once all of that is clear, I'll get to work on the surgery rewards too, they will take time but won't go unnoticed! I have not been able to find time to schedule a consultation yet (I keep trying to call the offices but get no response and I can't receive calls at work most of the time as there's no reception inside our office) but will keep working to get something arranged in the future. It's hard when you work 24/7 hahah.

That being said, I'm sorry for my lack of activity around here, I know I comment less and take a while to respond a lot of the time but I am using as much of my time as possible to earn money so I can get the help I need to fix my health issues before they get worse. Lots of exercise, eating better, that sort of thing, on top of my more than full time job, on top of taking commissions on 12 online accounts...it can be exhausting. So bear with me and please don't be offended that I won't be taking trades or participating in much of anything, it's not that I don't want to, I just can't at this time. I'm making a huge effort to take a couple hours of time every few weeks to at least play a video game with my roommate or chill, and that's tough enough to find as it is! But also definitely necessary and fun. :)

Just a reminder as well that ALL commission, trade, and donation inquiries MUST be sent to sharkcommissions@gmail.com so I can keep track of them!

Thanks!
Jay


Top Surgery Fund Updates

Journal Entry: Tue Jun 3, 2014, 9:26 AM



Top Surgery Fund by Robo-Shark
August 9, 2014 - Thanks to proceeds from Tampa Comic Con, the fund has surpassed $5,000! I am still searching for the right surgeon, and have had two of those I looked into eliminated as possibilities unfortunately. My best lead is still a doctor in the Chicago area, so I may have to travel. His rates would also probably put me at $12,000 for the procedure/hospital fees, plus travel/accommodations. I am doing my best to put as much as I can towards it and to keep looking for more options, as my pain and cough have been worsening over the past few months. the-fox-after-dark is selling handmade Toothless plushies for proceeds too if you are interested! More straight-for-sale items will be available in the hopefully near future too. Thank you again for all of your help!

July 11, 2014 - Currently the fund is up to $3,205! Thank you so much for all of your help, I have been working with contacting surgeons on helping me and it appears so far there are very few surgeons who can help me, none of them being in this state. The cost is becoming a close estimate between $10,000 and $13,000. The pain in my shoulders, back, and chest is becoming tougher to cope with and as a result I will try to reopen commissions this August. All funds that I can afford to spare will go towards the surgery and travel costs to get it. My paypal is sharkcommissions@gmail.com if anybody would like to help donate in the meantime (the fees through Paypal are also lower for me than GoFundMe and I can add your contribution to the fund without having to pay additional charges if you are able to use Paypal instead!).

Again, thank you so much for all your help, signal boosts are also appreciated!

June 24, 2014 - Fund has now surpassed $3,000, thank you all so much! I am working on setting up a consultation hopefully soon to better determine the procedure and possibly begin looking into a date for the actual surgery. I may need to see a few doctors before knowing for sure which one I am going to be moving forward with, and that could greatly affect cost and dates, but I am trying to find the time to book a phone appointment.

I've been insanely busy and things have come up that I wasn't prepared for (car breaking down, for one) that cut into my time a bit. I am working on commissions, all sketch comms are being posted to scraps as I finish them. Thanks for your patience and please check out the spreadsheet on my Commissions journal if you want to see the progress!

June 13, 2014 - It's reached $2,711.00 in less than 2 weeks, I'm floored. Thank you all so much. MyrcurysToybox has also contributed a reward now too, as well as SweetPlushieCake . Please check them out! 

After doing more extensive research, the procedure I'll likely need to lower the risk of permanent nerve damage will be more costly, so I've had to increase the amount for the fund. Thank you again to everyone who has contributed thus far, I know it will take a good bit of time to reach this goal and that's okay! Thank you again for everything, from signal boosts to rewards and of course the donations, I will keep working towards it with my commissions as well!

June 6, 2014 - The fund is currently at $1,575.00! New reward levels have been added thanks to YeriDG and xapster ! More may come in the future. And a huge thank you to those who have donated in the past few days, I am hopeful that I may be able to get a surgery scheduled before the end of the year if the goal is reached!

June 3, 2014 - I want to say thank you so much for such a generous turnout on only the first day for the fund - I appreciate every share, donation, and offer of assistance from everyone! This is a big step in my life and one that I had hoped to put off for a while in order to gather more funds myself, but with my doctor expressing a need for scheduling it sooner, I'm doing what I can to take care of it before too much damage is done.

I'm making this a journal post so I don't have to update the deviation every time there are changes made, I apologize for spamming anybody with it - but I wanted to add that both Color-Bubbles and LeiliaK have offered their artwork as rewards now too! Please check them out, I'm very grateful for your contributions!

--

Hello friends!

I'm a 27 year old trans man who has been presenting as male for the past three years. I am planning for surgery with Dr. Garramone and had been hoping to set up a date with him a few years in the future after saving commission money, but my HRT has been sucking all my funds, and my endocrinologist is very concerned with my health and highly recommends that I push hard to get surgery sooner than later, as binding my chest for as long and as often as I have had to due to working outside the home so much could be doing permanent damage to my ribs and lungs.

Unfortunately I can't afford to do this on my own. I'm working a combined 80-100 hours a week between my studio job and commissions, but with school loans and the cost of my injections, there is not much left at the end of the month. I'd hugely appreciate any help in getting to my goal so I can get my chest repaired and be able to live a slightly more normal life!

The surgery plus hospital stay generally costs approx. $8,000, and also requires me to stay in the Miami area for about a week. I am trying to provide $3,000+ out of my own pocket but some help would be really great. Once the total is reached, I'll work on scheduling the surgery and time off for hospital recovery!

Thank you so much for your consideration and for spreading the word. You are all amazing friends and your support has always meant so much to me! More rewards may be added over time! 

Top Surgery Fund!

-Jay


Artist in Need of Help!

Journal Entry: Mon May 19, 2014, 7:02 AM



Update: Please if you can, give Starimo a look! She needs to make $400 fast and it's very important. Her commission info is here: Click

My commissions are currently on hiatus but should be reopening sometime in late August/September.

Thanks!
Jay


Introduce Yourself!

Journal Entry: Thu May 1, 2014, 9:28 AM



Hi watchers! I've come to realize there are almost 2,000 of you, but I only know a small handful, namely those who comment often. I'd like to hear from more of you and get to know you better! So hey, mind leaving a comment and introducing yourself if you have the time? I don't bite! (Well okay, I do, but I'mma shaaark, I have an excuse....) :V

1) Tell me a bit about yourself! Hobbies, interests, favorite things to do?

2) What's your favorite animal?

3) What's your favorite movie, video game, and tv show? Books and comics are good too!

4) What is your favorite piece in your gallery?

5) Why are you watching me?

6) Name 3 things you are most passionate about!

7) Introduce me to one of your characters (or if you don't have one, introduce a character you like from another artist)!

Don't be shy now :V

-Robo-Shark

EDIT: Because a few people requested it, here's mine I guess! |D

1) Tell me a bit about yourself! 
Hobbies, interests, favorite things to do?

Drawing, character building, sewing plush toys, beach trips, working out, and on rare occasion I like playing video games!

2) What's your favorite animal? 

Welp I'm sure the answer's obvious :V

3) What's your favorite movie, video game, and tv show? Books and comics are good too!

Tekkon Kinkreet, Jet Force Gemini, Paranoia Agent/Spongebob (tie), and my favorite books and comics are Shutter Island and Fullmetal Alchemist/Pluto (tie).

4) What is your favorite piece in your gallery?

Tentacle Love by Robo-Shark Monster by Robo-Shark

5) Why are you watching me?

I LOVE ME

6) Name 3 things you are most passionate about!

Storytelling, human rights, saving the Earth.

7) Introduce me to one of your characters (or if you don't have one, introduce a character you like from another artist)!

I think most of you guys know my main crew already! I do have some more to introduce in the future though!


DeviantART Meme

Journal Entry: Wed Apr 30, 2014, 9:55 AM



1. How did you join DA?

I'd been a member of Side7.org and MediaMiner.org before I joined DeviantART. When I discovered this site, I figured I'd give it a try, and was amazed at how much faster it was than Side7, and that you could upload more than 5 images a week, hahah.

2. What does your username have to do with you?

My 'sona character is a shark, and I'm a mechaphile. Hahahah ROBUTTS.

3. What is your current avatar of?

My main character Rafe as drawn by ProjectENDO 

4. How many watchers do you have, and how many do you watch?

1,942 here, 579 on my plush account.

5. Do you have more than one account?

Yes, I use Patchwork-Shark to upload my plush.

6. Name three of your favorite artists on DA. 

That's really hard to do but here are three who definitely inspire me: johnsonting , Hideyoshi , ProjectENDO 

7. What deviant(s) do you admire because of their personality?

SO many. But a few who've inspired me to push my story and professional life are caat , Saetje , Fyuvix, MagnaStorm and Myrcury-Art 

8. How many deviants do you actually know in reality? Post their avatars.

:iconmyrcury-art::iconzeta-neubourn::iconsaetje::icondemongemini6::iconneo-dragon::iconsimplylittleflower::iconcrazycrumbcake::iconwolfibane::iconfowlboss::iconwolvenillusion::icongrowlylobita::iconkhezix::iconkirafoxx::iconleiliak::iconphychoticsilence::iconshortcake-middy::iconsadnobody::iconsubstantiallyuseless::iconwolfoffire::iconxdecemberxlovex::icontwitchykalgante: and I'm sure I'm missing a few of ya, sorry! Poke me if I forgot!

9. Do you comment, fave, or both?

I try to comment when I can, at least on art where I know the artist reads the comments! I fav when I'm particularly inspired by something, so it's fairly rare, hahah.

10. What do you typically post on deviantART?

Mostly commissioned works lately it seems, but I have plans to post much more original work and some video game fanart in the near future. Comic pages too someday, I hope! You'll mostly find robutts and sharks, lol.

11. Do you participate in clubs or contests here on dA?

I participate in a few when I can, I love exchanges and contests!

12. What is your most popular deviation? As in most viewed or most favorited?

I MUST CAPTURE THE AVATAR by Robo-Shark
58,772 views, 2,587 favorites...I thought it was a funny idea at the time but holy crap.

13. What's your favorite submission in your gallery?

Probably a toss up between these two:
Tentacle Love by Robo-Shark Monster by Robo-Shark
Neither one is impressive artistically but they mean something to me, hahah.

14. What are things you wish you could draw better?

Environments, by far! Mechs, robots in general. All things I need to practice, hard.

15. Do you have a premium membership?

Yeah, there are some really nice people constantly renewing it for me, you are amazing thank you ;_;

16. How many hours a day do you spend on dA?

Probably too many. I have no idea since I just refresh the page in my browser from time to time lol.

17. Are you a fast, slow, or medium typer?

About 80wpm

18. What is the most annoying thing people ask you?

"Do you take requests?"

19. What is the most annoying/offending comment you've ever received?

Probably being told I'm "fucking sick" or that I'll "burn in hell" hahah. I've gotten my fair share of "your art sucks" comments. There's a lot more insulting stuff on my plush though which is why I keep them separate for my own sanity, mostly along the lines of me being a ripoff (funny enough, I make less money off of plush commissions than my illustration work, and neither pays enough to live, not even close to it).

20. What/Who inspires you?

Life! In general, I guess, hahah. Both the good and the bad of it. Some shows/games have influenced my work too.

21. Do you use guidelines when you draw?

Depends on the drawing, usually I toss down some quick head shape and lines of motion.

22. Do you associate people on deviantART with their icons?

Sometimes hahah.

23. Have you ever suggested a Daily Deviation?

Several times! Some got chosen too :B

24. Everyone has considered leaving DA once or twice. Have you? Why?

Yeah, the whole plush thing was pretty bad. I'm very wary of doing commissions ever again on that whole front, though I may take a few again soon. And hateful fan drama, though ever since ditching fandoms I find that the folks who watch are a lot cooler people who are there for the art and my own personal work rather than because they want to see this or that fanart, and they don't get mad when I draw something new or different. :V


Workaholism and Why It Sucks

Journal Entry: Thu Apr 10, 2014, 5:52 PM



Over the past few months, I've been struggling hard with my addiction to work. Do I need income to live? Of course I do. But beyond the work that earns me money, I am constantly making more work for myself - setting impossible goals for Mechanima, creating a list of about 30 plush I want to create before August, struggling to say "no" when people ask for favor after favor. Work can be just as bad for you as reliance on smoking or alcohol, and at times, at least in my case, it's a way to blurt out thoughts I would rather not have to think about (sounds a lot like drinking already, eh?).

I was raised by a workaholic father. He was hard on us as kids - getting a B in school was a reason for shame. From a young age, I was always productive. In elementary school, I was restricted to one half-hour television show per week, one hour of video games per month on average, and the rest of my time was spent drawing, making crafts, and cleaning the yard and house. I was raised with a strict work ethic, but I did take time to enjoy playing when I was allowed to do so, and filled my time with reading books and writing stories.

Then college happened.

Art school can be brutal - the art industry is competitive and you need a strong work ethic to succeed. But the mentalities we carried in the animation department at SCAD were not healthy. We considered SCAD an acronym for Sleep Comes After Death. We laughed about it, but it was no secret we were proud of our sleep deprivation, our hunger, our exhaustion. We strove to be the last one to stop working, because breaks meant you were not passionate enough. We felt we had achieved something when we reached the point that we were hallucinating from lack of sleep, or so sick we were bedridden. After all, Ub Iwerks was said to have drawn 600 frames of animation every day! You took a 3 hour nap? You're not working hard enough!

This kind of attitude destroys artists. It burns us out, slows our progress and stifles creativity, and it is detrimental to us both in mind and body. Being a Senior Graphic Artist working on Disney and Marvel properties has been thrilling, don't get me wrong, but working unpaid overtime constantly with unrealistic (nay, impossible) expectations, and coming home to doing MORE work, only to grow distressed with the fact that I can't do it all in a day because I need to sleep, has run me ragged. I'm looking for new work at this point, and taking a break from doing commission or freelance work on the side until I am able to recover.

As artists, I think most of us have at least a little bit of an ego. We like feedback, we thirst for people to hear our voice. Art is a form of expression, after all. But there are times we have to put that ego, that need for being successful in the sense of artistic achievement, aside and take care of ourselves and those we love.

There are a few big things I've learned from these last six months:

Do not use sleep or food as a reward.
If you are exhausted, sleep. If you are hungry, eat. Reward yourself with a half hour of video games, a chapter from a book, or a tv show. Punishing yourself by depriving your body and mind of basic needs is not the way to succeed.

You are worth more than your artwork.
Art can't be the sole reason for living. What else are you passionate about? What matters to you? Family, friends, travel, collecting bottle caps - whatever it is, it's just as important as your art goals. You DO matter and you're needed regardless of your success in the art world.

Taking breaks is not a waste of time.
This is one of the hardest things for me to digest. Playing a video game, taking a bath with a book in hand, spending a day in the woods - these things are not a waste. They are experiences, they take us away from our work to give us time to recharge, and they can lead to inspiration and a heightened sense of creativity. Art isn't produced in an empty void, our inspiration comes from around us. We need to experience life in big and small ways. You are not lazy and you are not wasting time by stepping away from your phone, your computer, and your tablet to enjoy a day with your family or friends.

Working ourselves all the time doesn't make us happy. We may like to think that it does, but it takes away our needs as human beings to interact with others and to experience the world around us. I've withdrawn from people and treated breaks like they are shameful, and as a result, I've hurt my friends and family by stressing out and using my self-depreciating attitude and projecting it on them too. It's taken me a lot of effort to listen to the people around me who have been telling me that my habits are harmful for a long time (and I am still struggling). But they're right, it's important.

Take breaks! Leave time in your crazy schedule to kick back and laugh with the people who care about you, even if it's only for ten minutes! BREATHE! It's natural, it's necessary, and it's not a sign of failure or laziness.

-Robo-Shark


Design Contest! 3000 points and more!

Journal Entry: Thu Mar 27, 2014, 9:43 AM



Headbursters with Headphones by Zeta-Neubourn
Headburster Design Contest!

My buttbro Zeta-Neubourn is holding a design contest with over 3000 points, $35 in Steam games, and artwork in prizes! I'm contributing to the prizes myself, go check it out and enter if you have the time!

-Robo-Shark


I sent my parents my coming out letter last night.

Talked to my mom on the phone at lunch today. She cried. Dad is very upset. Probably won't talk to me for a while. There was a brief exchange about how "at least you're not gay"

Except that I have a male partner now and okay, we aren't gay, but that's a technicality, so uh.

Apparently both my parents cried themselves to sleep last night too but at least Mom is talking to me. She knew about this for over a year though.

She said my dad still sees me as his cute little princess when I was rolling around in mud with Tonka trucks even as a toddler, I don't know where the princess part even came from, but nonetheless, I will keep hanging in there and hope that over the next few months or years, things might work out. I don't know yet.

Mom's afraid this will be the last straw though and he will cut me out of his life for good.

I know I hurt you and I know you might not believe it but I do love you Dad. Please don't shut me out of your life permanently.

All that being said, I apologize if it takes me some time to get through some of this. Thank you again for all of your support and help. I'll be continuing commissions though I may be a tad slower if I need to take time to work all of this out.

I especially owe a ton to my friends Hunter, Steph, and Lydia for being there for me in person a lot while I've been going through this. Thanks for not abandoning me while I've been in such low moods from this, it's really affecting me and I've done my best to control it and not let it show too much but sometimes I have to let it go I guess.

I know in the end life will go on, and things will be okay somehow, it's just not going to be easy. That's why I fought internally with this for years and that's why it took so much effort to accept that this was something I needed to do to live.

Again, thank you for all you do, without the folks I met through this site, I wouldn't have gotten to where I am today. And I'm sure that things will get better.

-Robo-Shark

EDIT: My dad called last night, even though my mom said he likely wouldn't talk to me for a while. I didn't get to the phone in time but he left a message saying that it was brave of me to have the strength to say what I did and that he admires that. He said he will be there for me but didn't particularly want me to call him back, he sounded very strained and depressed. I'm going to call him tonight, and I feel so horrible about it, but I just wish there was a way to help him understand that I'm the same person and always will be.

I really am sorry for being born with this condition, it's not something I ever would have asked for, and I fought it for so many years because I always put my family before myself and wanted so badly to be what they wanted me to be.

But in the end, it's the decision as to whether or not they have a trans child or a dead one.

Thank you so much for your words guys, I'll get to replying once I have a bit more time.

EDIT:

10ml vial, $103.99. Huge thank you to those who made it possible!

SLOTS CLOSED at least for now holy guacamole thank you guys SO insanely much for your help! I didn't expect such a huge turnout, this is more than enough to afford my next vial which will last me a while. THANK YOU, YOU GUYS ARE AMAZING AND I LOVE YOU. I'm really grateful for your help, and glad that you are cool with faster turnaround sketch slots, due to my limited time!

Today has been a big milestone for me - after years of suffering through gender dysphoria, I've begun the hormone treatment therapy I've needed for so long.

I administered my first shot of testosterone today, which should help to start improving my mental and physical health greatly! I'm really fortunate to have been able to get this far. But although I'm diagnosed with gender identity disorder, my insurance will not help cover any of my medication expenses. This means my vial of testosterone will cost over $100.

I'm doing all I can to afford the costs out of my own pocket, so I will be taking on yet more commissions. I have one left to complete and would like to fill my slots as quickly as possible - I will be doing 10 simple $10 colored sketch commissions:

Ask Rafe 02:26:2014 by Robo-SharkBirthday Suit Bizkit by Robo-SharkCommission: Pantsless Leilia by Robo-Shark

Level of detail and completion will be based on detail of the character, as each will be completed in approx. 30 minutes.

Payments can be sent to juno.luver@gmail.com, I will try to stream at least some of them sometime next week!

I also have handmade plush for sale in my Etsy shop!

Thank you all for your help and support!
-Robo-Shark
Hi guys!

Thank you all for your patience with commissions, life's been busy and I'm working on making toys for an upcoming con / restocking my Etsy / applying for an internal position at the company I'm working for. You'll be able to see those soon on Patchwork-Shark! I'll be back on them this week though, and I hope you like what I have coming!

On another note, if you're looking to commission other artists please check out these guys!
:iconpampd::iconmyrcury-art::iconwhatifgirl:

On a Mechanima-related note, I will be returning to weekly updates on AskRafe! Due to my lack of time for doing too much for the comic, I do want to at least commit to posting some sketches and responses. It'll not only keep me from getting rusty but also will allow me to update regularly with more Mech-related things like I used to. And although the name of the blog is Ask Rafe, ALL characters are open for questions and responses! Story questions and feedback in general are welcome!

Thank you for all your support!
-Robo-Shark