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Just wanted to reach out and say thanks for everybody for all you guys do, I appreciate the kind words on my work, the encouragement, and your support in so many ways.

I've been struggling a lot (for years honestly but I tend to keep quiet and do my best to plow through) and I am branching out to trying to apply to another wave of jobs. For now I'm trying to stay relatively local so we don't have to move anywhere in the next year, unless Emory gets a job elsewhere, which is totally cool. I am having to redesign my portfolio to an extent and shift focus from my artwork to production/design stuff (not my forte but the only thing I can get a job in).

I'm still working on reward plush from 2 years ago when I started up a GoFundMe, each plush is very large and detailed so it is taking a long time to complete them, but I'm keeping the work on them as steady as I can. I'm also trying to clean out the apartment a bit to make things lighter and give us more room, less clutter. I appreciate your patience a lot as I work around the clock and taking breaks is so essential for my health right now.

I've been emotionally drained and in a lot of pain this week. Emotions are NOT something that I like to express or deal with, I'm the type to view everything rationally and tackle problems with logic and progression - more of a "what do I do to change this" approach than a "this hurts and I need to let it out" kind of way, I hate the latter and I hate burdening anyone with it. |D So, change is on my mind. A lot, hahah.

Been looking at home ownership as I mentioned before, but I'm so divided on whether or not we want to stay here in this area, or if we will want to end up somewhere further north, or in between. The ocean is a near-must for me, being far from it would be hard on me, but if we were in an area with other large bodies of water and lots of greenery and rainfall, I think I could cope. I'd hate to give it up unless I absolutely had to though. But cooler weather is totally fine, maybe even appreciated. Been thinking about Connecticut in particular. Not so sure on jobs though.

Ideally, one day we'd be living off our passions. Logically, we need full time jobs. And travel is a big passion of mine, so if I ever want to make that a reality, I need to do more than simply make ends meet. Stability is a must. >_>

But yeah. All my ramblings aside, I'm working my way through things slowly, with a lot of help from Emory who's always there to give me advice and comfort. It's a struggle, I'm not feeling well a good majority of the time the past two years. But I am doing my best and trying to force myself to work just a bit harder to get through this so one day maybe I can recover.

Thank you to the friends who've been there for me. I know I'm never on Skype and I am often quiet online in general. It's not that I don't appreciate everyone, just that I'm very introverted and I tend to handle my emotions by myself (or privately with Emory), and more or less seek advice for solving the problem rather than for comfort - but I'm still grateful for those who've reached out even if I am horrible at knowing how to respond. Thank you. <3

-Jay


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Hey Mate, not been online much either but just wanted to send some good vibes your way. You're amazing, just don't forget that, k? Good luck with all the stuff you are juggling, i am still keeping my eye out for possible positions for you (no luck so far :( Sorry!)